Its like nobody understands, and your the only exception.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2NpTwVr968

hey, you know what hurts? when a guy denies that you've ever been a special part of his life, although thats what he's told you all along.

"went out driving tryin' to clear my head"

" i'm at a weird point right now. i've always missed him, & i've always loved him. but i kissed him, & him, & him. but i also love you, & i can't imagine not spending my time with you. in addition, i should just be focusing on myself. my head hurts, my heart is sore, & i'm tired. "

why is it so hard to accept things as they are? why do we struggle & fight against the inevitable? is it the knowledge that things could be better? or is it hope? the hope that if things were different, we would be different. better. stronger. complete.

"Desperate"at this point, she'd do anything for even an inch of sympathy.
if you ask society, she's crazy.

find a globe. point to where you are. now point to the exact opposite location. this is the farthest place away from you. figure out exactly how to get there (this is easily done online). write down the directions & seal them in an envelope. on the envelope write: "how to get as faraway as possible." keep this envelope in a safe place. you may need this in the future incase you have to escape (because of the occurrence of undesirable future events, or simply the overwhelming of certain feelings over your body and mind).

you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans.
" you always had to be right, but now you've lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive"


That's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't.
& it took a while for her to figure out that she could run.

who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told? somebody tell me why i'm on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone?


do you ever wanna run away?
please say yes.


"with the radio turned up so loud that no one hears you screaming"
welcome to my life - simple plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong;And no one understands you. Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming,No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right,You don't know what it's like
To be like me,To be hurt,To feel lost
To be left out in the dark,To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around,To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you,No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies,While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like,When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like..To be like me

All i have ever dreamed of was living that perfect life. turns out, that life is just a fairytale.. something that will never brought to reality by anyone no matter who they are.

"but more than anything, i wanted to be able to walk away. & it seemed like the one thing i couldn't do at that moment. like my feet were glued to the pavement & my lips & tongue suddenly weren't able to work. it was the moment i knew i had been waiting for, to tell him just how broken i felt & how empty & wrong everything felt without him next to me. that everything i did reminded me of him & no matter how hard i tried, nothing i did felt completely right. but to declare that i'm so strong & i always knew i would be okay without him holding my hand. that this is what life consists of. of "i'm sorry's" & "i miss you's." & i knew that we all had to fall at some point, but i wasn't ready to fall. i tried to leap but had nowhere to land. "i guess i thought you'd come back." i said with tear filled eyes. & i didn't want him to see me weak, it was that last thing i wanted to show him. the pit of my stomach lurched forward & i think my hear fell out of my chest. i was never good at making statements but with nothing to lose, i had everything to gain. "what do you want me to say?" "i want you to say something. i wa- want you to know. i want you to understand & feel everything i felt when you decided to just leave. to just waltz out when the timing felt right for you. well the timing wasn't right for me. i woke up every morning with an aching heart. i hoped you would come back & every night when you wouldn't, it felt like i was missing something. i want you to say you're sorry, i want you to say you missed me. i want you to say that every minute you were gone that you wished you were here. i want you to say anything." "babe.." he choked out "but most of all, i want you to know that i don't need you. because during the month that you decided not to visit or call or communicate, i found something that you could never give me. i found myself." & in that instance, my feet swiftly turned me to face the sunset & i walked away from something i wasn't sure two months ago i would ever turn back on. i always thought i needed someone to love me. but loving myself was something i needed far more."


" There are two types of secrets, the ones we keep from others, and the ones we keep from ourselves"

there are no foreign lands. it is only the traveler who is foreign.
girl, you're doing everything wrong but you make it look so good.

been through a lot in the last year, it's like everything i love is slipping away. & every time i come home, some more of me isn't there. i gotta get it together, i need to do things for myself. i've given everything but still you take more from me. i need some room to breathe.

yes, i'm going to ask again, for somewhere around the 1,000 000th time; why me?


if there is something she's done to deserve this, please let her know so at least there'd be something she was certain about in her life..

[ while your sleeping with your pride; dont worry ill be fine ]

I woke up today to the thought of the sunshine, I never noticed how bright it actually shines..
exam in aboutt 2 hours..
wish me luckk :)

I can forgive you for leaving,but I cant forgive you for coming back

Once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely.

Never let succes go to your head, and never let failure go to your heart.

At the end of the day, you either focus on what seperates you or what holds you together.

I wouldn't take a bullet for you, but I'd push you out of the way. I'd rather stay with you; I love you enough to stay.

If you didn't have pain, you wouldn't know what good felt like.

She sprayed a pillow with his colognejust to make sure she'd never forget the love of her life as he sprayed a pillow with her perfume to try to convince his heart that she'd never love him again.

I make myself sick. I feel weak and pained. I've always hurt, but I've never let it show.
At least, Not 'til now..

I see no harm in telling young people to prepare for failure rather than success, since failure is the main thing that is going to happen to them.

never look down on anyone unless you're helping them up.

"long ago, I learned not the be picky with farewells. they weren't guaranteed, nor promised. you were lucky, blessed even, if you got a goodbye at all."

& if we were really meant to be, well, then we just defied destiny. it's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed.

the fact is lollipops turn into cigarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts. undies turn into thongs, & homework turns into recyclables in the trash. cell phone turn into electronics hidden in class. detention becomes suspension. soda becomes vodka, bikes become cars, kisses turns into sex. remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? when protection means wearing a helmet? when the worst thing you can get from boys was cooties? remember when your mom was your best friend? your biggest enemies were your siblings. race issues were about who ran the fastest & the only drug you knew was cough medicine. when wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. the most pain you ever felt was when you skinned your knees, & goodbyes meant till tomorrow. we couldn't wait to grow up, but i would give anything to go back.

& i think i cried for days, but now that seems light years away. & i'm never going back to who i was.

cinderella walked on broken glass. sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass. belle fell in love with a hideous beast. pocahontas risked her life for a feast. jasmine could had had anyone, instead she chose a poor man. ariel walked on land all for love, & for life. love's all about facing your biggest fears.

she talks about you like you put the stars in the sky.

an amusement park in winter is like when you go to the places where you went with the person you love but they're not with you anymore. everything rickety & cold & empty.

i am small. i feel like no more than nothing at all. but when i lose sight of daylight & my darkness falls, i'll be strong.

"i can't see anything that i don't like about you.""but you will.""right now i can't.""but you will. you know, you will think of things. & i'll get bored with you & feel trapped, because that's what happens with me."

you wake up with a list of all the people you'd rather be. but you're already on everyone else's list.


how am i supposed to pretend i never want to see you again?

He and I had something beautiful but so dysfunctional it couldn’t last.
she once lived a happy life

She was precious like a flower,
she grew wild, wild but innocent,
a perfect prayer in a desperate hour,
she was everything beautiful and different,
stupid boy.

Tell me I can't and I'll show you I can.

You look at her so amazed, I remember when you used to look at me that way.

Never make someone your priority when all you are to them is an option.

This is the best chance you've got, and most of you won't do a thing even when something in your gut makes you suddenly taste saliva in your mouth and for a second you almost ask yourself is this all my life is ever going to be?

"He and I had something beautiful but so dysfunctional it couldn’t last"

but, like ivy, we grow where there is room for us.

i think it's more interesting to see people who don't feel appropriately. i relate to that, because sometimes i don't feel anything at all for things i'm supposed to and other times, i feel too much. it's not always like it is in the movies.

The sun is out, it melts the snow that fell yesterday. makes you wonder why it bothered..

you're probably thinking i've forgotten all about you by now, but that's far from it. i have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but i'm getting better. i continue to smile and still go on without you. i know i have missed you, but i have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. i still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. just everything - i miss it all. however, i feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when i will see you again. until then, remember this; no matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we've cried, never ever did I give up on you. so if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. i may be far away, but i will always be in reach.

to everybody i've ever known : i'm so sorry for everything that's happened. i don't know how to fix it.

i'm going to walk away and it's up to you to say how far.

stay mad as long as you can because once you`re not mad anymore, it hurts. it hurts like hell & once it hurts that bad, you can`t make yourself mad anymore.

he’s the king of mixed signals, and i’m the queen of second thoughts.

you're no longer my last phone call or text message, no longer my last kiss, yet somehow, you're still the first thing on my mind.

fuck it. you throw a dart at a map, we’ll go there and start new. somewhere else in the world that’s not here. somewhere where we haven’t said things to each other that we can’t unsay and done things which we can’t undo. there we can say new things. we can do new things. and those new things we say and do will be more important than the old things. let’s leave. please. leave with me.

i hate how we never got our chance to see what we could’ve been. i hate how i know i’m not over you and how i pretend to be.

you can tell a lot about a person's character by what they smile about.

i have never been strong enough to stay. people say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn't. staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing. staying right where you are, waiting for your entire world to be ripped into pieces is much harder than walking away and starting a new one.

"His leadership inspired the team"
I like purple today :)

you know something,
In life, when things don't go your way..
even after you've given it your all, your best shot,
you may think like Eminem "once you give your best shot, that's it.. there's only one opportunity"
or you may think like me.
I've grown to have faith in everything I do.
After all that I've been through, I acknowledge the fact that I came out a better& stronger person.
Now that I've pursued one of my only goals to make peace with my past,
things are better. But not exactly the way I want it to be.
I've opened the door, they just have to walk through it.
him, oh him.. he's as wonderful as ever.
but I wonder if he realizes I'm not going to wait around forever.
pffft. yeah right. knowing me I'll run right back the minute he realizes he loves me.
I have a tendency to go back to old things in my life that I begin to miss.. even though it may not be easy, I still pull through it, and come out stronger.
believe in your self.
If anyone doubts you (the way things work in life, I'm 101 % sure that somebody will),
don't completely ignore it.
&
don't completely take it in.

Don't ignore it because maybe that person really does care about you, and they have only good intentions.
Don't completely take it in because you should know by now, that your not living to please other people.

when you begin to listen to yourself.
that's the day someone will listen to you.

-blov3
...
We laugh together. We flirt more than ever. We seem so perfect, but you and me? never.

"Be with who makes you happy, even if it means your always running back."
Honestly, if you’re not willing to sound stupid, you don’t deserve to be in love.

"What are you waiting for?"
"I don't know, something amazing i guess."
-The Incredibles

You have no right to say a single word about me, my choices, or my past. Because you weren't there and you didn't get your heart broken, and you didn't watch me bounce right back.

you can't waste time over missing something in the past. life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you can accept that. yet you still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be; afraid you'd never experience it again, afraid you've already lived it and already lost it. you can't waste time over missing something in the past. life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you can accept that. yet you still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be; afraid you'd never experience it again, afraid you've already lived it and already lost it.

The minute you decided that I wasn't worth the truth was the minute you decided to break my heart.
Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it is better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Nate: When you called the other day, it was like... I could breathe again.


To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. Fearless if walking into your freshman year of highschool at fifteen. Fearless is getting up and fighting for what you want over and over again... even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even though you can't breathe without them. I think it's fearless to fall for your best friend even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's fearless to stop believing them. It's fearless to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright... that's fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is fearless.- Taylor Swift


I'm a totally new person.
I had to leave some people behind that were important to me,
I regret it but I just have to learn to move on in life and forget my past.

I’m looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.

Serena: I need to know why you love me.
Dan: Because I do.
Serena: I really want to trust you when you say those words, Dan. So maybe if I knew why, I'd stop being so scared of hearing them and afraid to say them.
Dan: Okay. Well, if you want to talk about why...
Serena: It has to do with my mom and her many marriages.
Dan: There. That's why. Because I actually like it when you interrupt me, which is often, by the way. I love you because you make no apologies about being exactly who you are... Beautiful, smart, sexy as hell.
Serena: Now you're embarrassing me.
Dan: That's another reason. You're completely unaware of your affect on me. You're also completely unaware that you laugh like a 4-year-old. And I love you because you can be with someone like me and still be best friends with someone like Blair.
Serena: Yeah, well, I tried to be.
Dan: I know you do. And that's not easy, but you never give up on her. That is how amazing you are.
Serena: Well, you're amazing too, for being able to say all of those things. You just are. And I love you.

You still mean everything to her, you're just not worth the fight anymore.

"To laugh often and love much... to appreciate beauty,
to find the best in others, to give one's self...
this is to have succeeded" -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Within you I lose myself.
Without you, I find myself always wanting to become lost again.

ilysmainsfeaecbymmwgrws.
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' starts in my toess*

In order for something to last forever,
it must be effortless..
because eventually, we all give up.

I can't take this any more;
There's something you should know,
What's been going on..
Yeah, It's messing with my heart
but
I can't even start
To describe what I've been holding inside.

" When you look at me,
it’s like you’re secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope.
But I want you to know something, I almost have."

"..I have nothing to say to that"
please let me now how to handle this situation,
because I know, that without guidance I'm going to end up doing
something I'm going to later regret.

Hello love, you've taken my head for a spin.
I cant control the feelings I'm hiding within me, can you find a way to pause these moments and just permanently erase them so I never have to look back and see how adorable he really is.
Can you erase them so I don't have to look back and count the uncountable times I've embarrassed myself in front of him.Erase them so I can finally forget how I was before he walked into my life, so that I can never look back and become what I once was. That insecure wreck. Erase it so I can say bye.. Bye to all the memories & regrets& secrets; And hello to not givin' a damn anymore, to just living my life the way it should be lived. After all, my life isn't worth wasting. And as crazy as it may sound, your isn't either.This is a promise to myself, that from now onI'll live it up,and break it down; forgive,forget and move on..Be noone but myself and not that ridiculous clown. Both in which I'm capable of inpersonating equally well.

The way she speaks makes me shy away, from the only thing that keeps me going each day.Why cant she understand I love him too, my hearts on hold my love wont move.My love for her she cant conquer,he has to choose, its me or her.She needs her friends but I need him, I don't like change but its not a sin. Maybe I shouldn't try..Be something like them, I feel like a rock, and they're all the jems.
I don't understand what makes him so invincible & aspiring apon my mind, all I know is apon my soul, he's one of a kind.
Have you ever experianced a web of love? So many other girls in his life.. like hes sent form above.. He's got a bunch of girls he can pick and choose, but he's one of the guys I'm not willing to lose.You can steal my heart, willpower and joy, but please don't you dare lay your sight on this boy.Because I know for a fact, that the moment you do, you'll become one of his, and he'll be first in your life too.Watch where you step and think where you go,take my advice, that smiles' just a show.Under that smile,he's got a voicebox of gold, his charm starts spraying out like a hose; everything he says, makes you crinkle your nose. I love this boy, you probably do too..But just know, there are other girls out here who love him more than you do, I know how you feel.. without him..
we're screwed.
credit; b-lov3

why is it that we let them put us through living hell..
then take them back without hesistation?
oh life's great isn't it.

offline message: (5:31am):
i'm here for you

What's worse than wanting something you can't have? It's not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in... someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just tear you to bits.

We both listened together to the rain pour down and the thunder clap and smelled the earth rising to greet us. "You look invincible."

Cause when your young your gonna believe that he really loves you, your gonna believe he's in it for the love and nothing else. your gonna believe he's not using you for a bit of action every night and your gonna believe he wont tell anyone about how much you gave up to him.And after being scared by blind love your gonna believe that every boy in the world is like this. You gonna believe there's no such thing as true love, your gonna believe it'll take a miracle to believe in another boy the way you did. You're never gonna realize just how much you depend on him, until he's gone.
You see, boys are like stars, there are millions of them out there, but only one will make your dreams come true.

All I wanted was to be wanted. Wish I could go back and tell myself the things I know now..
I've been looking at the world the wrong way,
and that's going to change.

"I love it when you look at me that way"

There are some people in life that
make you laugh a little louder,
smile a little brighter and live a little better.

When you go to bed
and he's all you can think about,
you know your falling in love.

Whenever I get sad cause I'm missing you,
I just think to myself,
I'm so lucky to have someone so great to miss.

He completely stole my heart &
I hope he never lets me go;
I never really told him but
he had me from [ h e l l o ] <3

" here’s to the kids. the kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of coke & patrick or sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. here’s to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. here’s to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. here’s to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. here’s to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on mtv..and blame mtv for ruining their life. here’s to the kids who care more about the music than the haircuts. here’s to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. here’s to the kids who hum “a little less 16 candles, a little more touch me” when they’re stuck home, dateless, on a saturday night. here’s to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn’t even know they existed. here’s to the kids who have read The Perks of Being a Wallflower & didn’t feel so alone after doing so. here’s to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend(s). here’s to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don’t care. here’s to the kids who speak their mind. here’s to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. here’s to the kids who second guess themselves on everything they do. here’s to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. here’s to the kids. this one’s not for the kids, who always get what they want, but for the ones who never had it at all. it’s not for the ones who never got caught, but for the ones who always try and fall. this one’s for the kids who didn’t make it, we were the kids who never made it. the overcast girls and the underdog boys. not for the kids who had all their joys. this one’s for the kids who never faked it. we’re the kids who didn’t make it. they say “breaking hearts is what we do best,” and, “we’ll make your heart be ripped of your chest.” the only heart that i broke was mine, when i got my hopes up too too high. we were the kids who didn’t make it. we are the kids who never made it. "
-pete wentz

"I know this isn't much and I'm sorry but I just can't do this right now. I'm really sorry."
In life it seems as though,
It always rains the hardest on those who deserve the sun.

He knew that no one ever really looked the way they did in photos. He knew he didn't look as wild or as frightened as he did in his own. He came to realize something as he stared at my photo- that it was not me. I was in the air around him, I was in the quiet time he spent alone between studying. I was the girl he had chosen to kiss. He wanted, somehow, to set me free. He didn't want to burn my photo or toss it away, but he didn't want to look at me anymore, either.